Wednesday, August 11, 2010

Falling Behind

I've fallen behind on this blog and I'm kind of embarrassed about it. I have a couple things that I'm currently working on and I'll fill you guys in.

The first one is...I've been running every night when I'm usually blogging. It started off as just a brisk walk around the block with my dog. Every night, I tried to increase the speed until poor Daisy's short little legs could no longer keep up. Now, I'm running 1.3 miles every night.

Just a little background information...I have a medical condition that's sort of like prediabetes. It's called Polycystic Ovarian Syndrome or PCOS. It messes with the way your body processes sugars and causes you to be insulin resistant. It can contribute to weight gain and make it very difficult to lose weight.

My doctor put me on a glycemic index diet in June and I started to lose weight. It happened slowly at first. Then, I started Metformin, which is a diabetes medication. I felt so much better and started doing yoga and walking.

I've lost 26 pounds so far! I'm not going to stop here, though. I'm going to keep going and have a goal in mind (I'm keeping it secret until I reach it, but I'm getting closer!)

I know yoga sounds super crunchy, but I really like it. I have fibromyalgia, which is a chronic pain condition. Yoga has helped out so much that I haven't had to take anything for pain since just after I started doing the yoga. It's weird because those poses look painful and uncomfortable, but you breathe into the pose and it feels good.

Okay, enough of that! The other thing I'm working on is preparing for my flight next week.

I am absolutely terrified of flying. My husband refuses to fly with me if I'm unmedicated.  I think he's afraid that I'll be arrested for acting crazy. I'm a little afraid of that, too. I know you're supposed to face your fears and all that, and I do, believe me, but when there's a possibility I could be arrested, I'll just take the damn medicine to avoid problems.

The last time I took a flight was a little less than a year ago. My husband and I flew to London (yes, from Hawaii,) and I prepared for the flight as if I were going to my death.

In fact, I was pretty convinced either the flight there or the flight home would crash. I got my affairs in order and my husband and I updated our wills. My two older children were staying at home while my mom took care of them and I wanted everything to be in place in case we didn't come back. My husband wasn't amused by the fact that I was planning for our demise, but I couldn't help it. I just wanted to make sure everything was taken care of....just in case.

I'm flying by myself for the first time since I was about 14. I have my medication ready to go and my friend will be picking me up from the airport. I just have to mentally prepare for the flight. It takes a lot of focus to be mentally prepared to fly, even with medication.

Anyway, basically this blog will probably be pretty quiet over the next week until after I land in Pennsylvania. Look for my post announcing that I made it through the trip intact (hopefully.)


  1. Don't worry about shorting the blog.
    Just keep rocking your health!
    (from a fellow Metformin "user" LOL)

    Good luck on your trip, I'm not crazy about plane trips either but that's why God gave us Xanax.

  2. Yes, what Bill said! and I am sure that you will be there and back again in no time, with a house lined up, a lovely visit with old friends and ready to take on the world becuase you get to move to FALL! YIPEEEEE
    Go Xanax!! I have to take meds to fly too, i am not afraid of death though, just claustrophobic and i always seem to be on a flight with a baby whos mother forgot to bring it anything to drink while we go up and down, and it screams the entire flight....i bought sound reducing headphones too and they help will bein my prayers!!

  3. I don't think it's death that I'm afraid of. I'm contained in a flying metal tube and I can't get off if I want to and if we crash, there's nothing I can do about it. I think it's just a fear of not being in control, if that makes sense.

    I have Klonopin and Xanax, though, so I will be just fine.

  4. i am also afraid of flying. it's actually more that i'm intensely claustrophobic. so i'm relatively sure that the plane isn't going to crash, but i don't care, because it still means that if something bad happens to me personally, i have no escape route for the duration of the flight, and i plan a quick escape route for every room i walk into. my point is that a fear of flying is totally reasonable.

    i don't take klonopin, or anything similar, because i struggle with addiction, but by all means, do anything that will make the flight more bearable for you and allow you to look forward to your trip.

    where in pennsylvania are you going? are you planning to move there? my mom and i are from there originally and i love it.

    have a great time!

  5. I have PCOS and Fibromyalgia too, so if you ever need someone to talk to, I'm available. ;)

    I like flying though, or I used to at least. My dad was military so I grew up flying. It's changed so much over the last 10(ish) years that I don't care for it anymore though, more because it's not the same than any problem flying.